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Post by 410757864530 DEAD COPS on Jan 23, 2016 6:02:20 GMT
also when you do it set one extra pill aside for the next day, it will remind you you took it when you see it
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Post by 410757864530 DEAD COPS on Jan 23, 2016 6:04:18 GMT
or even take a piece of paper with the days of the week and tape it to your desk and mark it whenever you take it it sounds silly but it's simple and it will help
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Post by N4-PR on Jan 23, 2016 17:15:45 GMT
I am setting aside 4 different ways to not forget as well as my parents being there to remind me now.
I smoked weed again for the first time since the incident, which somehow sparked a memory of a very strange and frightening feeling. I remember hearing about people "sensing" a seizure beforehand. I found some diagrams and it felt like a memory bubble popped. Memories of waking up in the middle of the night with my jaw and hand contorting, while my eyes rolled into the back of my head all while laboring to breath. Now, I have lucid dreams every night and I sometimes have recurring dreams, so I thought it was just that and ignored it. So coming to this conclusion, I have been seizing every other night since early 2014 without even realizing it.
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Post by Special Agent Dr. Dana Scully on Jan 23, 2016 18:05:03 GMT
lol
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Post by N4-PR on Jan 23, 2016 18:14:34 GMT
I would go through 50 more brain surgeries than have kidney stones again
But I would rather have kidney stones again than to be conscious while I am seizing again
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Post by iiyama on Jan 23, 2016 19:02:48 GMT
are kidney stones the things you piss out? that sounds like hell
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Post by iiyama on Jan 23, 2016 19:03:07 GMT
that sounds like the actual type of thing you'd come up with for people to deal with for eternity if you were satan
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Post by iiyama on Jan 23, 2016 19:03:33 GMT
that and eczema
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Post by N4-PR on Jan 23, 2016 19:06:58 GMT
are kidney stones the things you piss out? that sounds like hell That is literally the worst pain I have ever experienced.
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paraskeet
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fisting myself and crying
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Post by paraskeet on Jan 27, 2016 0:35:16 GMT
i came out of spame hibernation to post here
okay ~serious time~ i want to die almost every day and have since i was about 11. i have been in and out to many doctors and psychiatrists and i always hate them. sometimes the feeling lets up, but there have been times where i have called out of jobs so i could stay home in bed because i felt like if i got into my car that day i would drive into something. i had a pretty bad childhood for the most part (some of it was rad tho) and im sure it all stems from that my many mental health problems. john saw me in pretty bad shape last year and i'm STILL embarrassed by it. i keep a very nice outward appearance to most people but when i get home away from everyone i sob into my pillow because i cant shake the feeling of wanting to shoot myself or jump off of my building. i do not seek out help for it as i manage it fine and have been for a long time now but it is always there and sometimes i do feel like in the future myself will be my cause of death.
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paraskeet
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Post by paraskeet on Jan 27, 2016 0:36:20 GMT
so ya diehard i feel you and im sorry you gotta deal with all of this, its unfortunate
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Post by Puggalo4Lyfe on Jan 27, 2016 0:43:46 GMT
fu cking bloody hell
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Post by Mr Anorexia on Jan 27, 2016 1:41:11 GMT
I don't want to be that_guy3 but I'd be pretty bummed if you were to diehard03
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Post by N4-PR on Jan 27, 2016 13:18:16 GMT
Shut up abe you're dead
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Post by i'm very angry on Jan 27, 2016 17:42:16 GMT
I don't feel like talking about it but have been there and still am since a very long time abd i know it'll never go away u just learn to control it better sometimes
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